what i been to this few week

just a few week ago i feel very down becuse there so much things happen to me i dont how to face it but in the end i done it thx to those friends who help me and support in the way

it start when me and my girlfriends breack up i was feel sad thinking why? what did i do wrong or what i did not do for her , until now i still donno why but i not much care anymore i know if i keep going down this road only having pain and sadness none happness, but until now i still love her so much,cant forget her i know no matter what i will love her forever and no one can chage it, if we cant be together as long i still can protect her as a friends, in my life she is the frist girl that i love so much i wan share my dream and my hope with her but now i dont think we can if ican say one things to her is. i love u nothing will change that

after few days my life getting more and more wost getting sick until went to see doctor,doctor say i have somthings growing inside of me, i was shock doctor say some vuris is growing with in me well doctor give me eat some shit ,but it get bigger ever min ,after 3 day went back to see the doctor he say it looking very very bad he say maybe need to cut it out but my body too week, if i try to cut it i have very little persent of living , i have to to choses cut it out , or try to eat more medicent . in the end i think let me engjoye life frist thn only chose .

after 1 week went back to see the doctor he say the virus start to week let my white blood cell killing them i hear this i dam happy ,the doctor say call me drink more milk becuse my body is very very week .after i see the doctor i was thinking if i really going to die i wan to tell ruby one last time i love her and goodbye .

well now my life start to chage bad in to good now i know no matter how life work out dont thinking about killing yourslfe when the time u going to die will feel u dont wan to die but is to late. so engjoy life now if life get you down there some one who will help u out. trust me i been there