today  i wake up  at  6:30 am thinking  about  should i go to sri cempaka ? but i promise someone i will go because she will go to my  church and join our games but i don`t wan to go i hear  ruby  going to  perform so i go because i miss her very much . then i  say to my self  go there have fun just smile , and don`t let  ruby see me  because i wan to see her  but don`t  wan her to see me well i reach to scott house first at 8:35 am. when i in scott house scott was playing  metal gear 4 i was watching him play . after that we left  at  9:00 am in the car was thinking of her how is she since a while din`t see her miss her a lot .

  9:45 am we reach there  we at the  bus stop scott was talking with his friends,i was thinking where is she  i can`t wait to see her and scared to face her well we chatting  out side for a while. then my friends amanda and  her friends calling us asking where are we so we went in to find her after that we take a walk scott showing  amanda friend to her new  class room  after that we walk to the back stage when ruby see  scott i try to run but she saw me , haiz i wan like acting to call someone because i don`t wan her to  see me .i was so sad i can`t face her i was  chicken >_<>

  after we go i i  see sook yee and  gyn there all stilling  other side then we sit me scott amanda and her friends  so we chat and siting seeing there pefrom every one see me  i having fun but i not i wan so sad that i never sad be for i wan trying to act cool i am all right. after a while there call us go out take the food and eat so we did that time i not in mood of eating but i try eat a bit but i can`t i call yew kwan take me see  ruby then we  find  her yew kwan going back eat this food i was looking at ruby thinking. how are you i miss u you look very pretty, i wan walk over there but my friend sms me ask me somethings then i see her like busy so  i just  left ,going  back to the  hall sitting feel like wan to cry  so i ask yew kwan  play dota  try  to forget but cant because the stupid  network  problem haiz  in the end i finally relax . but i wan feeling a lot of pain in the heart , i keep asking  yew kwan when she is coming out i cant wait  keep asking cant wait .

  when the time almost she perfrom i was  happy seeing perfrom, after she perfrom  she walking  near the   where i sit  that yew kwan call herr tell her i am there   i try to  be not shee her because i scared but she see me every call me go talk to her  i wan to when i wan go there she  look busy  i was disappoint i was thinking maybe later i can chat with her alone . 

  after the  i.u day is over  me ,scott and amanda + her  friends we take a walk to the swming pool there sit i was talking with amanda call me go talk to her so i call her ask her can  chat , she say sure  i wan abithappy then we go to there wait for her  and dancing  so we wait until she come i wan talk to her alone but scott was there and she  got to go with sook yee there all see  movie so i have no chance to talk with her alone   again i wan  very very very disappoint  i was  feel like crying but cant cry  until now i wan talk with her alone is like impossible   well now i know  i should not go better  today i  sad can spend a  time with her  haiz .........

but i never give up i will try my best to be with her again no matter what

what i been to this few week

just a few week ago i feel very down becuse there so much things happen to me i dont how to face it but in the end i done it thx to those friends who help me and support in the way

it start when me and my girlfriends breack up i was feel sad thinking why? what did i do wrong or what i did not do for her , until now i still donno why but i not much care anymore i know if i keep going down this road only having pain and sadness none happness, but until now i still love her so much,cant forget her i know no matter what i will love her forever and no one can chage it, if we cant be together as long i still can protect her as a friends, in my life she is the frist girl that i love so much i wan share my dream and my hope with her but now i dont think we can if ican say one things to her is. i love u nothing will change that

after few days my life getting more and more wost getting sick until went to see doctor,doctor say i have somthings growing inside of me, i was shock doctor say some vuris is growing with in me well doctor give me eat some shit ,but it get bigger ever min ,after 3 day went back to see the doctor he say it looking very very bad he say maybe need to cut it out but my body too week, if i try to cut it i have very little persent of living , i have to to choses cut it out , or try to eat more medicent . in the end i think let me engjoye life frist thn only chose .

after 1 week went back to see the doctor he say the virus start to week let my white blood cell killing them i hear this i dam happy ,the doctor say call me drink more milk becuse my body is very very week .after i see the doctor i was thinking if i really going to die i wan to tell ruby one last time i love her and goodbye .

well now my life start to chage bad in to good now i know no matter how life work out dont thinking about killing yourslfe when the time u going to die will feel u dont wan to die but is to late. so engjoy life now if life get you down there some one who will help u out. trust me i been there

best days of my life!!

todays i wake up at 8 am cant wait for the big day i was so happy becoz is the frist time me and my girl friend go out together very frist time,i cant wait to see her again at 10 i leave my house went to my friend help me style my hair she make a very nice job. after that is allmost 10:30am




me and my friends sit taxi to scott house we reach scott house at 10:40am after we there i put my beg to his house after that ruby a.k.a my girl friend call me say there reach to Time Square




so me,scott ,yew kwan and hong yip we walk to time square. we reach there we meet up with sook yee,ruby,and leougyn then we walk together then scott walk with sook yee and leougyn




i walk with ruby that time i hold her hand the very frist time ^^.after then we went to buy ticket to see movie after that we go eat Mcdonald's but leougyn and sook yee not ate becuse there eat aready me and ruby calling somthings to eat kennth come out form no ways .after half way i wan eating leougyn call ruby give me somthings she make for me i was thinking what is it after she take out i see she take out a book that she make for me about Dr jekyll and Mr hyde i was so happy really wan do back a same things for her after me eat. we when to play some games scott playing para para kennth playing a shooting gams hong yip and ruby playing raching car i dint play any games becoz dont feel like playing after 5 min jancie came we chat for a while waiting for 2 more person to come, after few min me and ruby take a walk went to a place that i feeling sad or angry that place , after that we walking back estee she finlly come we went in side to find there all. after that we going to see the movie at 12:45pm .




After the movie we when to eat befor we eat we all take pic together ruby she pay all for us i was feeling abit bad as a boy friends i should pay but she like wan to pay of us all .

me and ruby

we all together eating sook yee ice cream

then we went to scott house playing ps 3 we play until 9:10 pm after this there all went home but not me i was staying scott house when the taxi come i was feel abit sad coz ruby going home donno went only we going meet again befor she go in the taix i hug and give her a good night kiss went there in side the taxi me and scott went back up . that time i haveing a very very good time hope can do this again ^^

~end~

bad day

5 april 2008 moring at 7am wake up having a bad drean
keep getting the same dream over and over again so i try to not sleep
donno why i feel like today is going to be bad day but i try to think posstive.
that time the only things in my mind is my gf feelling sothings bad will happen.
10am i on my pc chatting with friend and get ready to go tution with my friends
when we are watting bus take us 1 hrs .when me reach there we was late so me rush
to there.whn i enter the class i saw 4 of my school friends but i try to atc i dint see them
but there walk over and chat with me . after that we have luach so walking then it raining
heavaly we ran to kfc so me call somthings to eat after that the rain stop so we walk back to
tution center we walking 5min it start raining agian we are wet we dont care. after tution i go home take a bath talking with my gf and a friend we keep talking in skype we talking when my
friends keep chatting somthings with my gf i tell him if he wan tell just tell dont keep it from me makeing me feel zhi zu thn he say cannot tell u becoz this is my sceret that i really piss off
i offline i try going to sleep and thinkin why he must now tell my gf when we are not together he din say a things .then my gf call me she know i zhi zu she keep chear me up thn i was thinking
why i meet this stupid friends haiz.but in the end i was happy back thx to my gf if i dint have her i dont think i still can be happy

frist blog post

frist time post blog i will post about my life where i go what u do
i wan share to every one what my life about hope u guys see it